very often i find myself standing in the depths of time.
where everyone else around me tends to fade out for an instance.
time, people, and all reality is lost within existance.
you wonder where i go?
so do i.
in life there are numerous paths to choose.
go left, go right, and sometimes, you just turn back around and go right where you came from.
some of us don't have the ability to choose where we want to go, and we either stay in the same places that we've been, or head right back down the path that we came from.
when its my choice to decide what path im ready to go down, i usually get lost somewhere inbetween trying to get there, and deciding where it is i want to go.
today is december 17, 2010 and i am lost in the middle of nowhere.
not a place where it seems like there isnt much around, but i am literly stuck somewhere between reality, choice, and all the paths i have ever decided to go down.
life.
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it changes.
and at times it speeds up so fast, and spins uncontrollably out of your reach.
you want to look back and just grab it, you want to capture every stinking memory, and every chance that you let slip out of your reach.
even when something isn't yours to have, even when you seem to not only have lost yourself, but your hold that you have upon other people, you want to continue to hold on to them, or somehow make them yours.
thr trickiest, unfortunate, and sometimes extraveagent scenarios come from going down the wrong path, and maybe not the wrong path, but a path unexpected.
three people whom have never even met before decide that they want to turn right.
and one person seems to veers and makes a sharp turn.
three people that meet eachother.
is it fate?
is it a matter of decision, or chance? is it time that was stopped for a moment?
was it influience, was it pain? was it a challenge that they were all willing to take upon themselves?
and then that fourth person.
four people whom wouldve never met otherwise.
time has been on hold for me for a long time.
and although my existance is still pure, without him to keep me alive, without him to guide me down these paths in the future, i wonder where the hell im going to be if he decides to leave.
will time exist then?
