found.
its like for one moment im really looking inside myself.truely, past all the dark places and hidden secrets inside my mind.its like finding a stranger, someone who isn't only depressed, but downright broken.
Its an irrational and unimportant question without an answer.undeserving of introspection.
i remain still as stagnant water, and long after these knots loostened, some inconcievable part of my soul comes out, and i am forced time and time again to check up on the darkest, deepest part of me.
snared by these tangled thoughts i decide that i will bury myself, at least that part of me, very, very deep.deadly sins, horrible mistakes, avarice...feeling the end that has become.
finally, i decide that for once i will wholeheartedly give up this unshakably disasterous life style.zero to sixty, in five point eleven seconds.and right then and there i let it go, grabbing my own hand, at the time im desperately in need for savior, and yank myself away from the future of sufferable consequences, and the harsh brittle truth of reality.
And honestly, its terrifying.Terrifying to suddenly see a glimpse of a shadow of me, that i had no idea even existed.was this unsespected part of me here all along, here when i ignored it right up to the very last minute?Or was i born with it, and carried it inside of me, refusing to let the most difficult and unusual part of me show?
its like for one moment im really looking inside myself.truely, past all the dark places and hidden secrets inside my mind.its like finding a stranger, someone who isn't only depressed, but downright broken.
Its an irrational and unimportant question without an answer.undeserving of introspection.
i remain still as stagnant water, and long after these knots loostened, some inconcievable part of my soul comes out, and i am forced time and time again to check up on the darkest, deepest part of me.
snared by these tangled thoughts i decide that i will bury myself, at least that part of me, very, very deep.deadly sins, horrible mistakes, avarice...feeling the end that has become.
finally, i decide that for once i will wholeheartedly give up this unshakably disasterous life style.zero to sixty, in five point eleven seconds.and right then and there i let it go, grabbing my own hand, at the time im desperately in need for savior, and yank myself away from the future of sufferable consequences, and the harsh brittle truth of reality.
And honestly, its terrifying.Terrifying to suddenly see a glimpse of a shadow of me, that i had no idea even existed.was this unsespected part of me here all along, here when i ignored it right up to the very last minute?Or was i born with it, and carried it inside of me, refusing to let the most difficult and unusual part of me show?
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