"you matter"

"you matter"
October 22, 2009 he looked into everyones eyes and said those two little words.


but as he looked into my eyes, and said those two words to me, and after i felt the familiarity and agony in his stories that reminded me so much of my own, i held onto that. i held onto that feeling of hope that he wanted each and everyone of us to feel, i held onto those words, his words, his stories, and built them into my own story. made everything said apart of my journey.


i felt that connection when my own tears streamed down my face as i shook his hand, and held it for a moment, letting my hand slowly slip out of his, grasping it for only one moment as i looked into his eyes. and he asked me, "do you want to talk about it". and i said no and let go.


by sharing his struggles, his stories, sharing his pain and recovery, he spoke to me in a way that did not need words or further conversation.


you're not alone.
little things matter.
people you love, your real friends, your family are what really, really matters.
dont trust the people that dont care about you.
believe that there are miracles, and they do come to you...even when you dont deserve them.
and never ever, ever give up on helping those who you really care about. nomatter what it takes do not let them slip away.


you may save someones life.


this stranger, no he did not save me from my evils, and he did not cure me from this hollowness that burns so empty throughout my soul.


but this stranger gave me hope. he let me know that you can get through it. if you try not to let the people in your life that really deeply care about you get away, if you try to get help from your true, real friends, you might save yourself.


October 22, 2009 around one pm, a complete stranger touched my heart, and i will not let myself forget such a moment like that.


i will try my best to save myself.